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hi all
first of all i will tell you my story im a 25 years old female i never
had a lot of sex with alot of men only two my boyfreind now and my ex
partner you see . You see i meet steven 2 years ago at first when i meet
him i was in love with him all i wanted was to be with him for ever but
he told me all about his past where he has sex with alot of woman with
out condoms and same where sex workers the fact is he will go to a sex
worker once a week every week but i didnt care of his past i was so in
love i thought if has hiv i will too so if he dies i die i didnt want
to live with out him any way but one day i found out he was cheating in
me so i left him it was hard but i did it .
Few months after i had some els which i like it very much and my boyfrind
was asking to get tested for hiv i said too him dont be silly afcourse
i im not positive but his words stayed on my mine hiv i could be positive
my ex boyfreind sleept with sex workers he was at a hight risk i keep
thinking about it feeding a fear i had of hiv feeling sceard all the time
with out going for the test i keept thinking i had hiv i was so sick with
fear that i evern stayed in hospital for 3 weeks i tried to harm my self
even thinking that i was positive so i contacted my ex boyfrind i asked
to get tested he said there was no cure for hiv so he didnt want to know
if he was positive and he told you get tested if u have it then i have
it if you dont then i dont so that even sceard even more and it made see
how selfsh he is and how much he did not deserve my love i hate it him
so much then so i keept worry and thinking about haveing hiv i thought
to myself i have a partner who id being good to me do i want to give hiv
afcourse not so i went to get tested i was crying i was alone i didnt
want any one to know of my fears soon after my test came nagtive i was
so happy i though god gave me a secound chance at life . but i have learnd
samthing when you are in love you are not thinking about hiv but a releshinship
can end but hiv is for ever is same thing that it will never go away trust
me one is worth giving your love for if he loves you he will get tested
i would never what to give hiv to some one i love so why cant men do the
same any one who will risk your life dose not love use condoms ask them
to get tested but never take they word for it couse people are selfsh
and they lie i dont wish hiv for any one no one deserves this viros thats
why we have to protect our self for it .
Sent via Email October
11, 2005 from USA.
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